Well here I am again lol, the last guy I mentioned was a total dissapointment, too quiet for me and while I was with him i got several messages off the guy from the voluntary shop that i was seeing before and wished I was still with him...
So i told facebook guy it wasn't working and met up and had a proper chat with shop guy. He apologised for not replying that night and explained how he thought that maybe i wanted to be left alone cos at that stage he didn't realise how bad my illness was. Now it's not like me to go back with anyone but he really got in my head, me and him were staying up til 6 am talking when we were together and I had never had that before.
So I took him back.. been with him just over a week, and fingers crossed all is going well....
I know.. maybe i'm a fool for going back.. but I have only ever felt a proper connection to one guy in my life, the only one i have ever really loved.. until now..
the thing is, i know I will never be happy with a quiet, nice normal guy and I have spent years in and out of relationships some lasting as little as a day, I have hurt many men this way, so I sat down and had a really good think... I thought what if i don't get back with this guy... how much longer can I go along searching for guys, ending it and being back at square one again.. as soon as I end a relationship I immediately go on the hunt for another one.. so why not give it another try with shop guy, yeah he upset me.. but he realises his mistake and has tried to make up for it..and it is so rare i find someone I click with like him. so who knows what will happen???
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